The Legend

A poem I scribbled...

The struggle was over,

men were beheaded,

women were thrashed,

children were orphaned.

Land was red and barren,

darkness loomed over the sky.

Life is chained by spikes,

shredding the lifeless bodies.

Not a soul dared to speak,

not even the ghoul or the troll,

silenced by the shameless fear,

who was laughing hysterically.

Time struck but melting,

everything went deadlock.

All prayed for a hero to emerge,

to slaughter the villainy.

He emerged from the ashes like phoenix,

spread out his majestic wings,

flying towards the zenith,

to conquer down the decayed.

He looked straight into blood shot eyes,

not even his hair prickled with fear.

He spun the villainy like a mongrel,

and slashed it with his metallic sword.

A thunder roared---- a sign of triumph,

darkness ran away to hide

light came out of their veil and radiated

the red and barrenness were absorbed by earth

green slided over the earth to spread itself

chain was broken with a might

fear stopped laughing and guillotined

engine geared up and gone the stillness

and in the centre of all stood a

man with sword in his belt and

torch in his left arm with dignity in his

face shined the most.

What I Seek In Others

That's question you get from a psychiatrist...at least that's what I imagine. I know I seek realism(first thing),passion and boldness. Its seems to be these three qualities are scarce in this world full of fake, hidden behind a huge makeup.Why? Well I think its because scarce, you long,need more!Realism by what I meant was not pure innocence!! But whatever you do, do it for you and not for others. I know many creepy people actually try to fit in with others by being....not exactly them. When you're in facebook, have you seen those people with 1000 brothers and sisters...I'm sorry to say...they're the worst 'sister' or 'brother', Its not easy

to have friends who feels like sibling to us, and if somebody claims that to you,..that's BULLSHIT!! Come on...its random chat...after 4-5 conversations, the person's your sibling?? Those who call you 'bro' or 'sis'....they don't mean it, 100% fact! Whats with the people calling 'bro' or 'sis' in every sentence!

Take this conversation for instance(Its almost same what I have seen, I tell you I've seen worse!)

Guy 1: Hey bro

Guy 2:Whats up,bro?

Guy 1:Things going bad bro!

Guy 2:What happened brotha?

Guy 1:She ditched me,bro!

Guy 2:Hell with that Bitch,bro!

Guy 1:Totally, brotha!

Guy 2:Find another one already,bro!

Guy 1:Hell with that f*****g bitch,bro!

See,this to me a total gay talk who is trying to make themselves appear straight and affectionate and cool by squeezing in 'bitch' and 'fucking'! (no offence to homosexual people cause I don't mind people's sexuality!Its their right to what they want!) Well whats with astrix, can somebody care to explain to me? I don't get it, if you meant it ,why not well as write it...Is there some anti swear squad here?Hell No. People around me learned this word, next day...its only this..like 'Good fucking morning'...etc(Open mouth here!)

Swearing or not swearing is up to you! Please don't say it to impress others..cause that just makes you 'douche'! Truth clear as wine! See...its a curse maybe....mostly I meet this kind!!Whats real in it? A bunch of retards trying to show off by learning swear and saying wherever unnecessary!

Passion...oh please..I think Indian students mostly don't know this word or what it really means...I am a student and I know what people think here! Let me tell you a thing,my school nearly had 180 students my year! I am one of the 2 people who is not writing entrance tests for Engineering or Medicine!Tell me 178 students are interested in this? Oh I don't believe that! People actually think if they learn this course, voila, you got a job as if its custom made for you.Its parents to be blamed. They come up with this excuse 'first you learn this,after that you can go for what you like'...what is this??Back up degree and job??Where's the passion and love in it?I don't want to say more except Its your life and follow your heart!! Am passionate about what I want and am going to work for it.

Bold...its not being head over heels. Acting smarty smart with cops or parents or anyone with authority. That's not good. Bold means to me is accept who you are and what you are! Don't give a damn about what others would think! Let them think what they want. That ain't our problem.

Stand up to your enemies or friends(when needed like Longbottom!). World can be your ground!!

These are the qualities I seek in people and I would like to call it RBP!!Cheerios!

I may not be the perfect one with qualities...but I try to keep it at best!

Themes Mirror Us

What is our theme?Take for example my theme or we call 'background' in this blogger.What I chose is branch of a cherry blossom tree in the moonlight with a dark sky in the background.Very beautiful, isn't it? What I find this picture more intriguing is that this reflects who I am, at least who I want to be or what I am in my head. How? Well I love night and I find moonlight perfect and cherry blossoms are my favourite. You see the flowers in the moonlight, can be taken in a number of ways like for instance a woman who has different shades,carries over a mysterious aura who at the same time has a totally different 'outer' look . Dark sky well, I tell you one thing, we can openly say we are not always innocent in our thoughts or mind..always have darker mind..darker selves. See this is what I find in this picture and I love it. Kudos to the photographer who took it. Well..we take different themes in different phases of our life. I remember what my theme was of when I was little, cartoons and fun and knowing things, learning the syllables of the world, how it is, what it is...I guess this theme is stuck with most of us, from here it changes...well mine I would say a white background...with dark line doodled here and there..never used a drug, liquor (no I am not a geek, this place is different what we see the rest of the world and its bad for your health too and yes, it doesn't make you cool either...!) I can't think of what my theme would be..I don't want to picture too cause what's the fun of that?

This thoughts mostly come up when I travel in a public transport, you don't know who you are sitting next to, where they going, why they are going, how they would or will be at my age.What was their theme? Believe me,it comes in handy if you're travelling long. One of things I like is observing, thinking it over in my head. Hours seems second. This all may stem from my quest for stories...a total different story...a different theme..Thinking others' makes me forget mine. What I like about Satyajit Ray..is what he said...if 300 people watch a movie, at the end of it 300 stories are made....300 different themes. So I believe what we are, how we take things is reflected in theme. Be it any form of theme in wedding,dance,party or any part of our life. Its what we are and what we want and what we are looking for and what we want to be perfect.

Name And The Names

The name 'aisu'...the origin...'ai' is from the first two letters from my own name, 'su'...well..its my parents' first words of their names. I believe that biological identity plays a great role in your names...and I don't think of any awkwardness in it. Its no well thought name in any sort of way I think...cause my friends call me 'aisu'...cause my name is..well think it out what my name is? Its not that difficult!Anyways.. in building an identity..names definitely play great role in it..something we share with a few...but different with so many others. So I checked what my name really is...well 'ai' means love in Japanese(I love Japan!)..and 'su' means in 'water' in Turkish and Japanese(at least that's what the site says). My name technically means 'love water'. Help me out here....is it weird?? OK here's the thing...I love liquid more than solid..and I do drink a lot of water because I think its gives unseen energy and refreshment.(Skin glows according to some I believe!).

I am finding some sort of way I could connect to my name. Somehow I am 'linked' to it...in a not so regular way!(???).

Names play a great role in people's life... we call 'different' individuals different names which makes us more different.

I am trying to imagine an era where people don't have names..here's a situation..like what would be situation when friends huddle together and calls each other 'dude'..'dude'...'dudette'...which could be annoying like some sort of surfers get together(no offence.hope none taken!). Here names play a great role..for instance save us from annoyance. Have you ever thought about etymology(study of names and origin..no problem if you haven't heard before!)...my real name means 'prosperity' (life hasn't been too prosperous but I try to make the best of what I have!)...have you checked out yours? Its funny when I think what Bob, Robin, Alicia, Shirley, Thomson, Sexton, Brian....all means??(people with these names, no harm and tease intended!) Come to think of it, most of us never thought of it...My cousin's name is 'Babu'...what does this mean'...feels like baby words strung together...ba..bu..

Even the judges of spelling bee competition find hard time finding its meaning and origin... Another thought...how many of us like our names?? Hmm..??I like my name...and do you? My cousin mentioned hating his name...cause that name is like from 'Jurassic period' and sounds soo old!! Like he is some 60 year old potbellied man with yellow teeth...who sits in sofa all day long...!!Eh?!!(Its 'over the top' idea and the man..mostly these people with this name fits the picture).

I don't know when people started finding names and calling each other!(I suggest you look upon wikipedia? Why I don't? I am lazy,ok?!) Whoever found it had hard time before, got so irritated and discovered! Funny, What would have been the first name?...Any thoughts??!..

First Time

Its all in the first impression generally.We will be shaking and tensed and we want it to be perfect.Lucky. If it's a 'near-perfect.' It would be silly if I came up with lame 'hey am newbie here...take care of me.' I don't intend it to be a journal or diary or whatever you call it. Its like 'why do we have to care what you did today'...tick tick..time literally passing....what to write and how to write...wish I had a topic. 17 and half years to be precise....since I was born...had experiences..

Can i jolt down here but again wouldn't that be what i called before. If I talk about sex..my first impression is that am trying to 'act' bold who speaks absolute naive things about sex, in fact that would make me a bitch. Here goes..there needs at least introduction...Am 'aisu'..finished school(never a Disneyland)...going to college to study my madame 'English literature'

Why...because i want to be a writer..Its difficult to say these around...science group running frenzy here and there...to study engineering or medical...why? I didn't go?...because I don't see the creativity in the way its taken and given ...Ok I know million other who would disagree with me..but hey, I respect that...Its all exam oriented..and what by the end of the course, people will believe that FBI kinda dressed people(this is a vivid picture of watching too many Hollywood flicks and sitcoms) standing outside the door..to take you in...really?? What you need a job which you find so pale and cobwebbed...count me out..

I know so many who are being pushed by family..they want their kids to have a job...Excuse me,jobs are not pansies to grow in your garden, nowadays its quality that matters. Is that it? Somehow study and cram it in our little heads...and sit in a hotplate to get your ass burned. I see these people lack the passion. Passion...it means a lot...to human...its ecstasy and enstasy entwined that gives ultimate bliss and give a meaning to your life. Stuck up job never reach you anywhere...trapped in a circle...turning us into monstrous self...Is this what we are spending our childhood,teenage hood,adulthood to study? to get this?

Okay I guess this is getting too much in my head. Anyways...Hope you people support me so that I could write more. And I have something to say...